Numb

I feel like I achieved nothing in this first week back at uni. I swear i didn't take out my books at all, and i didnt prepare for my tutes this week. Every mid-sem/semester break i always tell myself that I need to work harder, and the first week back I already let myself down. I don't know why i don't like doing work. I really want to be as studious as I was back in high-school, but every time i try i just find myself procrastinating and not paying attention at all. I think it's mainly because i have too much freedom here..

Anyway, it is a long weekend in canberra this weekend, and I planned to go back to visit Melbourne. On tuesday, I booked my tickets to go back, i texted all my mates and informed them that I would be in town, I clicked "confirm payment" on the VLine Website...and 5 minutes after, I got a call from work. They asked me to come into work for my first shift on wednesday. I don't know why they even chose wednesday because i already told them that I couldn't make tuesday and wednesday due to uni, so they told me that they'd call me back later that day. At that point i was freaking out because I was for sure that Vodafone would call me and ask me to come in anytime later in the week. I felt like I had to cancel my trip back to melbourne because they could call me in at anytime. I was devastated. All my friends back in melbourne thought that I was trolling them. One minute I tell them that I'm coming down and start booking plans, and the next minute I'm not even coming at all. I feel so bad because I haven't been back to Melbourne in ages, and I could have gone during the midsem, but i decided not to. I have no idea when my next opportunity to go back to Melbourne would be. I'm starting to miss everyone a little more.

My life has been pretty boring lately, so i will end it here.

Julia Sheer is back!